DayTen: " The Heart of Worship"

It is of course after midnight when I am getting to this but since I have not gone to sleep yet I am sticking to the fact that it is still today! It seems that this semester is going to be much busier than any I have had before. Between the internship, work, 14 hours of classes, attempting outside research avenues, applying for summer internships, and a considering/applying to PhD programs I have my hands full! This doesn't even begin to consider my attempted social life, the boy, and adding Wesley, Athens Church, and Starting Point to my weekly routine....did I mention training for marathons somewhere in there too! BUT I'm praying that God gives me the strength to handle it all and peace of mind to feel the clam within the storm. I get so stressed sometimes that it's hard to breath! I found myself praying constantly today...in all kinds of different places and it helped. I'm focusing on making sure that in all things I do that I glorify God. Yes my days are very very long, yes I am very overwhelmed BUT things are good, I am blessed to have the opportunity to learn, work, and praise God. I am reminded of the poem about attitude we use to read at summer camp. I believe I have a choice about how happy I want to be everyday in the face of adversity and I'm choosing to be happy. I think that by enjoying life I am pleasing God, as long as I give him glory in all things and know that it is only through him that this is possible.

Key Points:
The heart of worship is surrender
True worship happens when you give yourself completely to God
There are three barriers to surrender 1. fear 2. pride 3. confusion
Trust is the essential ingredient to surrender
Loves casts out all fear and the more you realize how much God loves you the easier surrender becomes
The more we let God take us over the more truly ourselves we become.
Instead of trying harder, trust more.
If you don't surrender to Christ then you surrender to chaos
Nothing under has control can ever be out of control
Daily practice

Verse: " Surrender your whole being to him to be used for righteous purpose" Romans 6:13

I am very taken by the thought that nothing under God's control can ever be out of control. This helps ease my mind about giving it all to God. When you meet me it is very easy to see that I am two things, a control freak and a people pleaser. I am in a constant state of panic and I stress myself to tears. I also over analyze relationships, interactions etc because I am so so so concerned about pleasing the ones that I love. I think we tend to forget about pleasing God because we have this mentality that he loves us anyways so why does it matter. Wrong wrong wrong. I have been finding myself praying more and more Thy will be done and am working everyday to surrender to God's will. I suppose I need a bit more trust...more signs perhaps. I'm just scared....thats it...plain and simple... I'm terrified...I'm not quite sure of what but I am...